She was like the heaven to the hell that he was living
The beauty in was horrible, description depicting
The woman he loved
The woman he loved
Connected at an age that was vulnerable to anyone around
Companionship was the blessing that invaded by the pound
They denied it
But eventually couldn't hide it
Sparks flew their chemistry came up out and resided
That's what he decided
What if we can ride this love train forever she agreed so they tried it
She would do her best to make sure they never collided
And he would never hurt her in his mind so they binded
That's when he told her you are like my highness
So open up your eyelids baby you are priceless
And he was like the answer to the riddle she could never ever solve
The best friend she would always call
The man that she loved
The man that she loved
Smitten with his kind words
Her emotions would arise
And all the other guys started pushing to the side
Cause the entree arrived
The lovable allegiance
Everything she believed in he would now breath in
Trust was increasing
Negligence decreasing
The walls that she built started to crumbling to feet
When he told her that he loved her through the phone
From then on everything started building on it's own
And she was so in love inside her dome
That the world didn't matter
The sky could fall now and she wouldn't even scatter
If her lover wasn't there to provide
For him she would die
You can see it in her eyes
The beauty and the curse is the fact when it's worst it still stands
The fire and eye of the other is still grand
So even through the pain and moments of quicksand
Love is leaned upon the strength of faith like kickstands
Through the moments of feeling like trust will never grow
Because the process of leaving the past was too slow
Our emotional cheating deceiving your lovers heart
Should have never let your mental be apart from the start
When everything you thought could occur but wouldn't
Does and past dues becomes shit you shouldn't
And everything's a question
Cause you be second guessing
Before you make a decision that really only take seconds
To apply when everything is all up in the sky
And you don't give a damn but you know you gotta try
Cause love is all you have and without it you will die
So you hold until you feel it's time to let it go and fly
But you don't
Why?
Every
Little
Thing
I
Do
I do it all for you.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Sunday, December 19, 2010
I call this Venta
I told her I ain't ready to settle down
I was getting sick of love but I better now
I still get around
And when I see a bad bitch I turn my head around
I still can't put the kettle down
I'm addicted to the burn
My feelings done died I just left it in the urn
You could have been my star
But instead I gave you space
Play your cards right and you could have got the ace
It's written on your face
Still I dismissed you like you just caught a case
No mean to judge but
I can't do the Ray-J theory
I still see a bit of danger in Ms. Berry
And I don't mean Halle
Cause even the top the of the line
Can flip out at the drop of a dime
When you get your mind right you can drop me a line
But in the meantime I'll be on the go
Got a friend with benefits on the low
Got a friend with benefits on the high
I got a winter chick, summer chick, chick for all seasons
Met her last may made me do spring cleaning
Lonnie had to fall back
Shakira got a man
Katherine doing her thing
Madison couldn't hang
And those are real names
By the time they see this they'll be pissed as shit
I was getting sick of love but I better now
I still get around
And when I see a bad bitch I turn my head around
I still can't put the kettle down
I'm addicted to the burn
My feelings done died I just left it in the urn
You could have been my star
But instead I gave you space
Play your cards right and you could have got the ace
It's written on your face
Still I dismissed you like you just caught a case
No mean to judge but
I can't do the Ray-J theory
I still see a bit of danger in Ms. Berry
And I don't mean Halle
Cause even the top the of the line
Can flip out at the drop of a dime
When you get your mind right you can drop me a line
But in the meantime I'll be on the go
Got a friend with benefits on the low
Got a friend with benefits on the high
I got a winter chick, summer chick, chick for all seasons
Met her last may made me do spring cleaning
Lonnie had to fall back
Shakira got a man
Katherine doing her thing
Madison couldn't hang
And those are real names
By the time they see this they'll be pissed as shit
Thursday, October 21, 2010
The heart
"I'm a pretty dark person, I thought about ending it a million times..I have to say music keeps me here by far, the main thing " -Anonymous
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Inspired by...
Not a day goes by when I don’t ask why?
When?
What happened?
Can we get another try?
Your the inspiration for the backdrop of many of my poems
So not compatible, but we got along
Maybe it was timing
Maybe it was real
Maybe you hit a spot nobody could reach
Maybe it’s forever
Maybe it’s a phase
My words got you
My actions drove you away
When?
What happened?
Can we get another try?
Your the inspiration for the backdrop of many of my poems
So not compatible, but we got along
Maybe it was timing
Maybe it was real
Maybe you hit a spot nobody could reach
Maybe it’s forever
Maybe it’s a phase
My words got you
My actions drove you away
Friday, August 13, 2010
96 Nissan Altima Music
Me and my niggas just wanna lay in the shade
All we feel is fire
Frustrated with grinding everyday
We want the Aston-Martin fully-loaded
But we drive in Altimas tailored like we just exploded
No AC conserving gas trying to make it to our destination
Contemplating some situations we want erasing
All the fantasies of shit we wish we could've had
The common dwellers of the world
And my girl be blowing me up telling me she wish we was better conditioned
And I just tell her soon enough we won't even be wishing
Sometimes I wonder if we sharing a similar vision
I wonder if this the way I'll always be living
Why do I even keep it honest?
It's obvious motherfuckers would rather be entertained
I should keep my feelings to myself and display emotions in other lights
Shave my head clean like Brittany Spears and become a dyke
See then maybe you'll understand the reason why
I write the shit I do and keep it real in every line
I'll never let successes become apart of my rivals
That shit is really pathetic and honestly isn't vital
This be the type of shit that's going through my mind
I hope you take it for the art of mine
Read between the lines
This is allah giving
Mixed with hard living
Never Cristal sipping
Maybe coolattas with double Ds
Or frappuccinos from starbucks that's how we do it
The sober life with the needle dwellers
That's what my crew is
I represent the average nigga with a no dream
To feed imaginations of drug dealers with tons of cream
I never smoke because I can't afford it
And because it almost caused my homegirl's abortion
I take caution to the peer pressure
My ears lectured by Nas
Jigga told me nobody owes me so I'm destined to starve
No front in me
Niggas don't want to fuck with this
Luckily the tougher me is only showing through god
Underestimate the truth in my shit
Infactuated with clever phrases to wrap your head around
Honestly I just wanna ride around in my 96 bumping to some Jeezy
Yelling out WHO DAT WE DAT
LEAVE ME ALONE
Let me ride on my own
The windows fucking jammed
The AC is blown
And I'm just trying to get home
All we feel is fire
Frustrated with grinding everyday
We want the Aston-Martin fully-loaded
But we drive in Altimas tailored like we just exploded
No AC conserving gas trying to make it to our destination
Contemplating some situations we want erasing
All the fantasies of shit we wish we could've had
The common dwellers of the world
And my girl be blowing me up telling me she wish we was better conditioned
And I just tell her soon enough we won't even be wishing
Sometimes I wonder if we sharing a similar vision
I wonder if this the way I'll always be living
Why do I even keep it honest?
It's obvious motherfuckers would rather be entertained
I should keep my feelings to myself and display emotions in other lights
Shave my head clean like Brittany Spears and become a dyke
See then maybe you'll understand the reason why
I write the shit I do and keep it real in every line
I'll never let successes become apart of my rivals
That shit is really pathetic and honestly isn't vital
This be the type of shit that's going through my mind
I hope you take it for the art of mine
Read between the lines
This is allah giving
Mixed with hard living
Never Cristal sipping
Maybe coolattas with double Ds
Or frappuccinos from starbucks that's how we do it
The sober life with the needle dwellers
That's what my crew is
I represent the average nigga with a no dream
To feed imaginations of drug dealers with tons of cream
I never smoke because I can't afford it
And because it almost caused my homegirl's abortion
I take caution to the peer pressure
My ears lectured by Nas
Jigga told me nobody owes me so I'm destined to starve
No front in me
Niggas don't want to fuck with this
Luckily the tougher me is only showing through god
Underestimate the truth in my shit
Infactuated with clever phrases to wrap your head around
Honestly I just wanna ride around in my 96 bumping to some Jeezy
Yelling out WHO DAT WE DAT
LEAVE ME ALONE
Let me ride on my own
The windows fucking jammed
The AC is blown
And I'm just trying to get home
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Untitled
Nevermind the bullshit
Letting go is the 1st step
Defense mechanism wasn't helping
Step into my nightmare
Moving by lightyears
Reflection was the enemy
Disamating my energy
Turning over a new state of mind
2009 was like a lifetime
Grow from it
I swear I'm getting closer to my dreams
Even though allah is every single thing that I set to acheive
You wouldn't believe
3 years gone in 2 weeks
Nigga I was smelling myself
Did everything that I knew I wouldn't do times 2 to the 3rd
Absurb with the words
Acting like I never cared
Lost my her
Whatever
I utter to myself I would not sweat her
When I think about the damage that I caused
I realized I don't understand it at all
Where did I go wrong?
You were always apart of my dream
But the baggage that I was holding killed
Know what I mean?
No excuse though
I understand we gotta move slow
Genuine intention is the goal but it's cool so
I stay patient
Studying my wrongs
I was so far gone in my ways
Assholes never get paid
They just stay in a place where the people that love you the most label you a disgrace
Taste defeat
Sour
Success is sweet
Till you find a curse and a gift
That's when the thought shift
Letting go is the 1st step
Defense mechanism wasn't helping
Step into my nightmare
Moving by lightyears
Reflection was the enemy
Disamating my energy
Turning over a new state of mind
2009 was like a lifetime
Grow from it
I swear I'm getting closer to my dreams
Even though allah is every single thing that I set to acheive
You wouldn't believe
3 years gone in 2 weeks
Nigga I was smelling myself
Did everything that I knew I wouldn't do times 2 to the 3rd
Absurb with the words
Acting like I never cared
Lost my her
Whatever
I utter to myself I would not sweat her
When I think about the damage that I caused
I realized I don't understand it at all
Where did I go wrong?
You were always apart of my dream
But the baggage that I was holding killed
Know what I mean?
No excuse though
I understand we gotta move slow
Genuine intention is the goal but it's cool so
I stay patient
Studying my wrongs
I was so far gone in my ways
Assholes never get paid
They just stay in a place where the people that love you the most label you a disgrace
Taste defeat
Sour
Success is sweet
Till you find a curse and a gift
That's when the thought shift
Today is yesterday...
Nothing is the same
Everything is wrong
I use to be so with it
Now it's like my mind's gone
Doubt is the venom
I was like a python
When it came being truth to myself right on
Lights on
We use to never have an issue going all out
Your desire my desire
Never stalled out
The separation created difference in many ways
So many days I craved
You didn't give me praise
Past tense living
Tryna move ahead
But my ass kept slipping
The vice was the goal
So the life left tripping
For my goals
My description is in progress F tripping
I was falling and I couldn't get up
Laying down
And for some reason I refused to sit up
I went searching for the tools that I knew you could give
But the love kept me blinded what the truth really is
Everything is wrong
I use to be so with it
Now it's like my mind's gone
Doubt is the venom
I was like a python
When it came being truth to myself right on
Lights on
We use to never have an issue going all out
Your desire my desire
Never stalled out
The separation created difference in many ways
So many days I craved
You didn't give me praise
Past tense living
Tryna move ahead
But my ass kept slipping
The vice was the goal
So the life left tripping
For my goals
My description is in progress F tripping
I was falling and I couldn't get up
Laying down
And for some reason I refused to sit up
I went searching for the tools that I knew you could give
But the love kept me blinded what the truth really is
Monday, July 19, 2010
In search of...
Where are we going?
That's what she said to me
But that place I once called home is just a bed to me
And we don't even sleep
Neighbors can hear her weep
I watch her feelings watch me
And they staring with the saddest eyes of loneliness
Look each other in the face and barely blink
I tried to make it write but the pen ran out of ink
So if my letters don't reach you I hope my words in sync
Where are you going?
That's what it said to me
But that place I call ambition now dead to me
Gone and forgotten
I'm off track like Dale Earnhardt
My liver rotten
Alcoholic tripping
Fucking bad bitches
And they got bad intentions
Club night
Guys and dolls
Balling out
But we about to drop the ball
I'm calling out for help
My friend called saying I need your help
I wanna say naw
So in conclusion
Sometimes we lose focus
Planning our own demise
Forgetting the big picture
Making it wallet size
So to what's important in my life
I apologize
I hope to stay faithful, focused and sanctified
We all get distracted
The question is would you bounce back
Or bounce backwards
You wouldn't know how to act
Or would you take action
That's just a part of life
And if your vision's impaired
You'll probably lose it all tonight
I'm trying to visualize how to get it right
But my vision so blurry
Trying to slow it down
Stay close to the ground
But we always in a hurry
Now and if I could
Make this world spin a little slower
Then I would
Then we could
Grow a little closer
I think we're getting closer
That's what she said to me
But that place I once called home is just a bed to me
And we don't even sleep
Neighbors can hear her weep
I watch her feelings watch me
And they staring with the saddest eyes of loneliness
Look each other in the face and barely blink
I tried to make it write but the pen ran out of ink
So if my letters don't reach you I hope my words in sync
Where are you going?
That's what it said to me
But that place I call ambition now dead to me
Gone and forgotten
I'm off track like Dale Earnhardt
My liver rotten
Alcoholic tripping
Fucking bad bitches
And they got bad intentions
Club night
Guys and dolls
Balling out
But we about to drop the ball
I'm calling out for help
My friend called saying I need your help
I wanna say naw
So in conclusion
Sometimes we lose focus
Planning our own demise
Forgetting the big picture
Making it wallet size
So to what's important in my life
I apologize
I hope to stay faithful, focused and sanctified
We all get distracted
The question is would you bounce back
Or bounce backwards
You wouldn't know how to act
Or would you take action
That's just a part of life
And if your vision's impaired
You'll probably lose it all tonight
I'm trying to visualize how to get it right
But my vision so blurry
Trying to slow it down
Stay close to the ground
But we always in a hurry
Now and if I could
Make this world spin a little slower
Then I would
Then we could
Grow a little closer
I think we're getting closer
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Woo-SA'
Why am I the guy that all of you rely on?
I just wanna live free and let these bygones be bygones
All of my family members see me moving in directions
That they will never agree with and that here got them stressing
Calling me for hours
Question after question
Never let them in
But I always give suggestions
Guessing that they searching for confessions
But my thoughts are to my lonely
Pressing harder for perfection
I just wanna feel like I'm a part of something
Saying I'm on it but I'm hardly working
Guess I should tell the truth and stop fronting
But this is how the life is
No heart, lifeless
Honestly I don't know how I got the courage to write this
The honesty has always been my excuse to be righteous
Praying when its convenient I know I need it god
But I'm in love with the flesh and all my demons feel me more
Masturbating to satan's laugh screaming to allah
I need you more then ever, but I guess that he ignores
I just dive deep into the sinners and the core
Counting everything against me leaving blessings out the door
It's crazy cause the shit I use to pray to get before
Be the same shit I'm use to seeing, honestly I'm bored
Human nature settles and I swear I want it all
Everything I use to cherish
Has become another flaw
Brothers who lend a hand
I'm shouting fuck them all
London bridges let em burn
And watch them motherfuckers fall
Like I don't get the picture
Everything is about communication
They tried being patient
They just sick of waiting
I don't blame them
I just sit and understand
Turn a cheek and keeping it moving
Like I never gave a damn
Is this who I really am?
The undercover asshole
I never showed it, use to come off as bashful
Bottling emotions and lashing out at the wrong time
Hurting feelings, feeding my closest lover the wrong line
I know she love me
I'm just tryna make my mind up
Getting use to the thought of never being behind her
Fail to even have a solid reason for me leaving
As I say I'm moving on with my life, but hardly believe it
Wiping my tears XX passion to the fullest
Playing tennis with decisions I don't have the heart to pull it
Am I wrong?
Futures in fucking bitches with thongs
We carry on
Thinking maybe this is what a brother needs
But I just fucking blew it like a virgin on her knees
No turning back now
Ain't no vision of backdown
I'm just tryna reside where the fellas ride in the background
My best friend makes me feel like I'm a dunce
So I don't tell him what he needs
I just give him what he wants
Fuck yall latitude
Never show gratitude
This is what separating our latitude
Tell me am I wrong?
I just wanna live free and let these bygones be bygones
All of my family members see me moving in directions
That they will never agree with and that here got them stressing
Calling me for hours
Question after question
Never let them in
But I always give suggestions
Guessing that they searching for confessions
But my thoughts are to my lonely
Pressing harder for perfection
I just wanna feel like I'm a part of something
Saying I'm on it but I'm hardly working
Guess I should tell the truth and stop fronting
But this is how the life is
No heart, lifeless
Honestly I don't know how I got the courage to write this
The honesty has always been my excuse to be righteous
Praying when its convenient I know I need it god
But I'm in love with the flesh and all my demons feel me more
Masturbating to satan's laugh screaming to allah
I need you more then ever, but I guess that he ignores
I just dive deep into the sinners and the core
Counting everything against me leaving blessings out the door
It's crazy cause the shit I use to pray to get before
Be the same shit I'm use to seeing, honestly I'm bored
Human nature settles and I swear I want it all
Everything I use to cherish
Has become another flaw
Brothers who lend a hand
I'm shouting fuck them all
London bridges let em burn
And watch them motherfuckers fall
Like I don't get the picture
Everything is about communication
They tried being patient
They just sick of waiting
I don't blame them
I just sit and understand
Turn a cheek and keeping it moving
Like I never gave a damn
Is this who I really am?
The undercover asshole
I never showed it, use to come off as bashful
Bottling emotions and lashing out at the wrong time
Hurting feelings, feeding my closest lover the wrong line
I know she love me
I'm just tryna make my mind up
Getting use to the thought of never being behind her
Fail to even have a solid reason for me leaving
As I say I'm moving on with my life, but hardly believe it
Wiping my tears XX passion to the fullest
Playing tennis with decisions I don't have the heart to pull it
Am I wrong?
Futures in fucking bitches with thongs
We carry on
Thinking maybe this is what a brother needs
But I just fucking blew it like a virgin on her knees
No turning back now
Ain't no vision of backdown
I'm just tryna reside where the fellas ride in the background
My best friend makes me feel like I'm a dunce
So I don't tell him what he needs
I just give him what he wants
Fuck yall latitude
Never show gratitude
This is what separating our latitude
Tell me am I wrong?
I call this Venta
For everyone whoever had the thought that I won't make it huh
I say that because in my face you all smile and tell me I'll go the mile
I know yall don't believe me so I'll make it worth your while
Same niggas that dap me down
But it's all good I'ma taste maker
That's what I'm here for
I'm aiming for the clearport
That's what I steer towards
I just wanna know what everyone's in fear for
Niggas plan a lot but they ain't never coming near war
My own family disgruntled and enraged
Cause they wasn't half of this back at my age
And yall can get the fuck from around me
Yall can get the fuck from around me
And you can leave the bullshit right where you fucking found me
I can't breathe all these women must have fucking drowned me
I would be lying to you if I said my life was perfect
I swear I live in a circus, they do this to me on purpose
I'm in love with you all I just can't have one
I ain't even grown why I just can't have fun
I hate the fact that I'm still attracted to you
So many things that I'd love to actually do
But then I look at all the wrongs that are actually true
I just wish I could give you up and trade back for my crew
Now I can't go back and retract what I do
Even though they criticize and attack what I do
I'll tell you more later now I'm on a dope chase
I miss the old days, now all I got is cold days
Things changed since we last spoke
Went from the last pit till the last hope
I say that because in my face you all smile and tell me I'll go the mile
I know yall don't believe me so I'll make it worth your while
Same niggas that dap me down
But it's all good I'ma taste maker
That's what I'm here for
I'm aiming for the clearport
That's what I steer towards
I just wanna know what everyone's in fear for
Niggas plan a lot but they ain't never coming near war
My own family disgruntled and enraged
Cause they wasn't half of this back at my age
And yall can get the fuck from around me
Yall can get the fuck from around me
And you can leave the bullshit right where you fucking found me
I can't breathe all these women must have fucking drowned me
I would be lying to you if I said my life was perfect
I swear I live in a circus, they do this to me on purpose
I'm in love with you all I just can't have one
I ain't even grown why I just can't have fun
I hate the fact that I'm still attracted to you
So many things that I'd love to actually do
But then I look at all the wrongs that are actually true
I just wish I could give you up and trade back for my crew
Now I can't go back and retract what I do
Even though they criticize and attack what I do
I'll tell you more later now I'm on a dope chase
I miss the old days, now all I got is cold days
Things changed since we last spoke
Went from the last pit till the last hope
Friday, July 2, 2010
The saga of h.e.r.
I was asked the other day what the meaning of my Sasha Thumph.e.r. tattoo means. I said everything, but after that I thought about it and it actually does. I was introduced to Sasha Thumper in 1998 with the Outkast Aquemini album track 9 "The Art of Storytelling Part 1". I don't know if it was the beat, the lyrics, the story or the nostalgia but it touched me. I was familiar with Sasha and begun to meet a couple or so I thought. I think in life you find people who are to meant to change you profoundly whether good or bad but change they do. I just so happen to find that person and I fell in love with her. She changed me in ways I still ponder. For that alone she will always have my heart. In the Outkast song Andre 3000 and Sasha lose touch and she ends up dying but through it all he had hope for her, them. That resonated to me as love, long-lasting love. H.e.r. (her essence is real) every since I began to to understand hip-hop I loved Common's "I used to love h.e.r" ands it's analogy. I love not only hip-hop but music in generally for it has touched me in ways not many things haven't and can't. Point blank period I get it. Every person has that one thing/person that has changed them or that one thing that got away or even defiines you. Sasha Thumph.e.r. is mine.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
I call this VENTa
My hands on the plow
Toes in the mud
Smiles with the tears
Sweat with the blood
Mix it all together
Hate with the love
Ying Yang Yang Ying
Push, pull, tug
It's all part of life
About what you do with it
Took my lemons
Made juice with it
Took my pennies
Made due with it
And recently I seem to be on a cloud huh?
Microsoft it's all about your outlook
Yep what a special story
And couldn't no one else learn the lesson for me
It was hard to eat
Like a messy hoagie
I ain't struggling
Just living a testimony
It's pretty funny I'm the man now?
The middle fingers they threw up
Turn to hands out
Look how I got em sucking up, shamWOW!
They build clubs, bottles pop, stumble out
And the cops they lock us up
Many times I got drunk
Had to switch it up
Little brother asked why I said listen up
The sun don't always shine
The bad guys don't always die
The good guys don't always arrive on time to save the day
Most of the time the ambulance be late
Rode around with road rage
I wrote my own page
Me I'm tryna chill
And make everyday a snow day
Blizzard in a beach chair
Jigga man and Coldplay
Came up out the dark years
Last one was '08
You asking me if I'm gon quit?
You don't know me
I reply broke scale
No weigh
Got heartburn
No rolaids
Its desire
The fire burn the whole place
Bojangles biscuit
Wake and bake
Staring at my watch
Face to face
Realizing time
I can't waste away
Toes in the mud
Smiles with the tears
Sweat with the blood
Mix it all together
Hate with the love
Ying Yang Yang Ying
Push, pull, tug
It's all part of life
About what you do with it
Took my lemons
Made juice with it
Took my pennies
Made due with it
And recently I seem to be on a cloud huh?
Microsoft it's all about your outlook
Yep what a special story
And couldn't no one else learn the lesson for me
It was hard to eat
Like a messy hoagie
I ain't struggling
Just living a testimony
It's pretty funny I'm the man now?
The middle fingers they threw up
Turn to hands out
Look how I got em sucking up, shamWOW!
They build clubs, bottles pop, stumble out
And the cops they lock us up
Many times I got drunk
Had to switch it up
Little brother asked why I said listen up
The sun don't always shine
The bad guys don't always die
The good guys don't always arrive on time to save the day
Most of the time the ambulance be late
Rode around with road rage
I wrote my own page
Me I'm tryna chill
And make everyday a snow day
Blizzard in a beach chair
Jigga man and Coldplay
Came up out the dark years
Last one was '08
You asking me if I'm gon quit?
You don't know me
I reply broke scale
No weigh
Got heartburn
No rolaids
Its desire
The fire burn the whole place
Bojangles biscuit
Wake and bake
Staring at my watch
Face to face
Realizing time
I can't waste away
Monday, May 3, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Subliminial for your ass
1st off to you I owe the biggest apology
It's not like me shoutout to everybody that follow me
In my world it takes alot to get upset
Still biting my tongue I learn to live with regrets
Karma I've accepted her for the bitch that she is
Depression strangely for the friend that he is
Denial I don't stomach, fear I don't touch it
Happiness so distant that to me it's just different
Yes I'm human mistakes will come
But I stand like a man and face the outcome
Till then I didn't learn, didn't care, couldn't grasp
Now I see a bright future and it's because of my past
So I think h.e.r for opening up, letting me go
Sweetest thing ever known, words won't show
To you I hate to be forward you want something go for it
I'm just trying to build, form a bond, share stories
Life's a blessing, I say it you remind me
Silence is golden, yours calm me
If I ever go missing please come find me
No subs, no @s dms preferably
It's not like me shoutout to everybody that follow me
In my world it takes alot to get upset
Still biting my tongue I learn to live with regrets
Karma I've accepted her for the bitch that she is
Depression strangely for the friend that he is
Denial I don't stomach, fear I don't touch it
Happiness so distant that to me it's just different
Yes I'm human mistakes will come
But I stand like a man and face the outcome
Till then I didn't learn, didn't care, couldn't grasp
Now I see a bright future and it's because of my past
So I think h.e.r for opening up, letting me go
Sweetest thing ever known, words won't show
To you I hate to be forward you want something go for it
I'm just trying to build, form a bond, share stories
Life's a blessing, I say it you remind me
Silence is golden, yours calm me
If I ever go missing please come find me
No subs, no @s dms preferably
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
R.I.P
Rap legend Keith "Guru" Elam recently lose his battle with cancer. 1/2 of Gangstarr his work speaks for itself. Monday, April 19, 2010
Letter to my muse
Dear Lady Luck, That letter found me, when I really needed it
Thank you alot, I really mean it
The subtweets I seen em
Just wondered why you couldn't @ me
Hell you had me
How did things change?
I mean Drastically
Late night convos, to not speaking?
I could have understood, just give me a reason
Maybe it was the distance
Or maybe just a sentence
Shit got weird
I mean Different
So did our worlds
You was Whitley
I was Dwanye
We was bound to last
Andre Benjamin now I'm an Outkast
I heard "Return of the Ankh"
Shit gave me chills
Bittersweet, I mean jagged little pill
Fuck a "window seat"
I want the whole row
We need space to move and grow
Never forgot, can't lie
So I have Kush X Orange Juice just to get by
Your teams I got it didn't hurt me
Cause nearly all the #1 seeds lost in the tourney
But I knew my role, till then didn't change
I didn't care about minutes
Just wanted in the game
I found new outlets
None like you
Fuck "next lifetime"
Baby we due
Wait for me
I return in June
Thank you alot, I really mean it
The subtweets I seen em
Just wondered why you couldn't @ me
Hell you had me
How did things change?
I mean Drastically
Late night convos, to not speaking?
I could have understood, just give me a reason
Maybe it was the distance
Or maybe just a sentence
Shit got weird
I mean Different
So did our worlds
You was Whitley
I was Dwanye
We was bound to last
Andre Benjamin now I'm an Outkast
I heard "Return of the Ankh"
Shit gave me chills
Bittersweet, I mean jagged little pill
Fuck a "window seat"
I want the whole row
We need space to move and grow
Never forgot, can't lie
So I have Kush X Orange Juice just to get by
Your teams I got it didn't hurt me
Cause nearly all the #1 seeds lost in the tourney
But I knew my role, till then didn't change
I didn't care about minutes
Just wanted in the game
I found new outlets
None like you
Fuck "next lifetime"
Baby we due
Wait for me
I return in June
Friday, April 16, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Hey I'm...why bother?
I hate introductions. I don't know its just like treading a path you have no knowledge of. I don't want to sound bias or anything. Its just that we meet and its a "connection" so we exchange numbers. We trade life stories, goals, fears, and then Applebees follows. Now it means "something" when I call? Now we know each others schedules just to be convenient and comply with each other. You post up pictures of our beach outing on every social network site to "prove" your LOVE. You spazz when you learn I still converse with my X girlfriend. I have to let you know I'm playing basketball with my friends so when you call and I don't answer you don't trip. Now I can't concentrate on my schoolwork because I'm hearing you seeing somebody else. All this because I ain't respond to a text? - Fabolous So next time you ask me what I'm doing tomorrow and do i want to do say...don't smack me if I laugh and say WHY BOTHER!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
Step your arms up
I went to the Old Glory Tattoo, my home away from home and saw some dope art. All I got was ANOTHER cover-up and a touch up. Didn't post since the hypebeast are out lol.
Mama cooked a breakfast with no hog - Ice Cube
Joyous day my "foster mom" remembered I'm muslim that was cause to celebrate lol
Saturday, April 3, 2010
I call this Venta
This ain't me something changed
Feeling high but still feel the pain
A week ago I was on a surge
Narrow lane tryna find a curve
I use yahoo just to find my words
Time just set in
This ain't ending
Because we never had a beginning
Realize I miss my best friend
And D ain't my best friend
Cuzzo convos be getting me through
Because he can still smile and he got 22
And I wanna complain and I'm barely 22
And you wanna put me down what type of girl is you?
Inadequate or just don't give a shit
The sky is the limit
That's why I coach it
Ain't hit that peak
Seconds turn to miles...miles turn to weeks
And it's been since_____ dare I speak?
No laughing
Just scrapping
Food for thought
I was fasting
Never lost the appetite
Almost close but can't make it right?
Feeling high but still feel the pain
A week ago I was on a surge
Narrow lane tryna find a curve
I use yahoo just to find my words
Time just set in
This ain't ending
Because we never had a beginning
Realize I miss my best friend
And D ain't my best friend
Cuzzo convos be getting me through
Because he can still smile and he got 22
And I wanna complain and I'm barely 22
And you wanna put me down what type of girl is you?
Inadequate or just don't give a shit
The sky is the limit
That's why I coach it
Ain't hit that peak
Seconds turn to miles...miles turn to weeks
And it's been since_____ dare I speak?
No laughing
Just scrapping
Food for thought
I was fasting
Never lost the appetite
Almost close but can't make it right?
I want you
I want you
I want you now
I want you here
I want you available
I want you to trust me
I want you at peace
I want you vulnerable
I want your possibility
I want you bare
I want you to notice me
I want you to remember me
I want you to feel me
I want you sober
I want your flaws
I want your fears
I want your dreams
I want your heart, if that ain't too much
I want your kiss
I want your touch
I want you to smile
I want you to say yes
I want you, but how do I tell you?
I want you now
I want you here
I want you available
I want you to trust me
I want you at peace
I want you vulnerable
I want your possibility
I want you bare
I want you to notice me
I want you to remember me
I want you to feel me
I want you sober
I want your flaws
I want your fears
I want your dreams
I want your heart, if that ain't too much
I want your kiss
I want your touch
I want you to smile
I want you to say yes
I want you, but how do I tell you?
Friday, April 2, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
A picture (An ode to the woman in my life)
Searching through my camera came across a picture
Some I can recall some I can't remember
One Georgia peach in the back look real familiar
She's thick in the right spots but overall slender
A former "muse"
Her words connected us but now it's a catch 22
Hope the truth prevails now once stranger
Because I just want you back no explanations
Right beside is a shawty Plies would vouch for
One I would spend my whole life asking for a do-over
See when you dealt with the fake, its kinda hard to see the real
I never would taken that call if I knew how it'll make you feel
Still gave me a chance at friendship
So I'll be a fool if I make you regret that
This one I still got chills I can't lie
Those were some good times lighting my la-la
Our approach made us evolve
Our motives helped us love
Our connection made us freaky
The distance made us care
Our struggles changed each other
Our pain helped us through our past failures
We'll always speak despite our endeavors
Now in between them I don't really kN.O.w
Got a heart of gold
With the black and gold
We swapped messages in a bottle till we found the right one
I just want her to find the right one
According to Vegas odds I'm a sure bet
See if you fall Ima be the right catch
Her whole life all she knows is neglect
Heart so cold waiting for it to melt
It's been stated, felt, and declared that I love h.e.r.
There's only 1 Sasha Thumper
Gift / Curse
Keys to the cardiac
Birthday sex
Tats to match
Lola dreams with the house intact
Not a negative I can spin
I love you before can't wait to love you again
Last but not least in the front is you
Beamer, Benz, or Bentley fuck it I want a Coop
Our convos fascinate me
The possibility challenges me
They all changed me and you remaking me
The future is unclear but its bright
I'm at peace with your soul
It just feel right
Because of you I can now forget
Them
I use to take pictures somehow they became a part of me
Now I have documentation of all our memories
memories
Some I can recall some I can't remember
One Georgia peach in the back look real familiar
She's thick in the right spots but overall slender
A former "muse"
Her words connected us but now it's a catch 22
Hope the truth prevails now once stranger
Because I just want you back no explanations
Right beside is a shawty Plies would vouch for
One I would spend my whole life asking for a do-over
See when you dealt with the fake, its kinda hard to see the real
I never would taken that call if I knew how it'll make you feel
Still gave me a chance at friendship
So I'll be a fool if I make you regret that
This one I still got chills I can't lie
Those were some good times lighting my la-la
Our approach made us evolve
Our motives helped us love
Our connection made us freaky
The distance made us care
Our struggles changed each other
Our pain helped us through our past failures
We'll always speak despite our endeavors
Now in between them I don't really kN.O.w
Got a heart of gold
With the black and gold
We swapped messages in a bottle till we found the right one
I just want her to find the right one
According to Vegas odds I'm a sure bet
See if you fall Ima be the right catch
Her whole life all she knows is neglect
Heart so cold waiting for it to melt
It's been stated, felt, and declared that I love h.e.r.
There's only 1 Sasha Thumper
Gift / Curse
Keys to the cardiac
Birthday sex
Tats to match
Lola dreams with the house intact
Not a negative I can spin
I love you before can't wait to love you again
Last but not least in the front is you
Beamer, Benz, or Bentley fuck it I want a Coop
Our convos fascinate me
The possibility challenges me
They all changed me and you remaking me
The future is unclear but its bright
I'm at peace with your soul
It just feel right
Because of you I can now forget
Them
I use to take pictures somehow they became a part of me
Now I have documentation of all our memories
memories
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Are you in that MOOOOOOOD YET?
The 1st leak from Mood Muzik 4 was recently released. If this a sign expect another great mixtape
Friday, March 26, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Roger That
I had a great convo with a somewhat stranger. But what I came away from it was don’t attach love to a condition, to an adjective that may change. It’s a choice that you’ve chosen.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
4/20 The End of an Era01. Curtain Call
02. Table For Two (feat. Jozeemo & Yahzarah)
03. Tigallo For Dolo
04. Revenge (feat. Truck North & Median)
05. So Cold (feat. Chaundon)
06. Second Chances (feat. Bilal & Darien Brockington)
07. Go Off, Go On
08. What We Are (feat. Quiana)
09. After The Party (S1 & Caleb’s “Who Shot JR Ewing” Remix) (feat. Carlitta Drand)
10. Two Step Blues (Zo’s Purple Suit w/ The Matching Gators Remix) (feat. Daren Brockington)
11. Get Enough (Pt. 2) (feat. Khrysis)
12. Before The Night Is Over
13. 24 (feat. Torae)
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
I call this Venta
4:05 pm location East Charlotte
Listening to Summer Madness by Kool and the Gang really venting and no I'm not high lol want to though. Its 71 degrees I should be working out but procrastinaton is flirting with me. I'm trying to make sense of it all, but here's no point of no return. I've had these telepathic, strange dreams the past couple. And your in them. I hate that I give YOU so much attention. We'll my mind does anyway. So back to this distance. The same thing that ironically brought us stronger killed us. As for you, so disappointed. I could go on more but its pointless I will win and in due time you see bruh lol. Through this phase I have wrote some thought-provoking shit, which will lead to another journey (fingers crossed) so let me quit being and work. Because what you eat don't make me shit -Jay-Z
Listening to Summer Madness by Kool and the Gang really venting and no I'm not high lol want to though. Its 71 degrees I should be working out but procrastinaton is flirting with me. I'm trying to make sense of it all, but here's no point of no return. I've had these telepathic, strange dreams the past couple. And your in them. I hate that I give YOU so much attention. We'll my mind does anyway. So back to this distance. The same thing that ironically brought us stronger killed us. As for you, so disappointed. I could go on more but its pointless I will win and in due time you see bruh lol. Through this phase I have wrote some thought-provoking shit, which will lead to another journey (fingers crossed) so let me quit being and work. Because what you eat don't make me shit -Jay-Z
Thursday, March 18, 2010
I call this Venta
I convinced I'm forced to deal with alot to test me, but I've gotten use to this.
Dissapointed by others you put faith in, lying to yourself over things and people you can't control. So I just deal with it head on. But this is where it gets complicated. There's no exact way to approach it. My methods somewhat bizzare works. So I do my way. So this is just a warning ok?
Dissapointed by others you put faith in, lying to yourself over things and people you can't control. So I just deal with it head on. But this is where it gets complicated. There's no exact way to approach it. My methods somewhat bizzare works. So I do my way. So this is just a warning ok?
Quote of the day
/>The old heads told me life wasn't a game...but mine steady feeling like pinball, dodgeball -Jay Electronica
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Quote of the day
Nights bright but the days dark, covered in tattoos but hate art…these eggshells I walk on are razor sharp, staring at the finish line looking for a way to start
– Joe Budden -Downfall
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