Woo-SA'

Why am I the guy that all of you rely on?
I just wanna live free and let these bygones be bygones
All of my family members see me moving in directions
That they will never agree with and that here got them stressing
Calling me for hours
Question after question
Never let them in
But I always give suggestions
Guessing that they searching for confessions
But my thoughts are to my lonely
Pressing harder for perfection
I just wanna feel like I'm a part of something
Saying I'm on it but I'm hardly working
Guess I should tell the truth and stop fronting
But this is how the life is
No heart, lifeless
Honestly I don't know how I got the courage to write this
The honesty has always been my excuse to be righteous
Praying when its convenient I know I need it god
But I'm in love with the flesh and all my demons feel me more
Masturbating to satan's laugh screaming to allah
I need you more then ever, but I guess that he ignores
I just dive deep into the sinners and the core
Counting everything against me leaving blessings out the door
It's crazy cause  the shit I use to pray to get before
Be the same shit I'm use to seeing, honestly I'm bored
Human nature settles and I swear I want it all
Everything I use to cherish
Has become another flaw
Brothers who lend a hand
I'm shouting  fuck them all
London bridges let em burn
And watch them motherfuckers fall
Like I don't get the picture
Everything is about communication
They tried being patient
They just sick of waiting
I don't blame them
I just sit and understand
Turn a cheek and keeping it moving
Like I never gave a damn
Is this who I really am?
The undercover asshole
I never showed it, use to come off as bashful
Bottling emotions and lashing out at the wrong time
Hurting feelings, feeding my closest lover the wrong line 
I know she love me
I'm just tryna make my mind up
Getting use to the thought of never being behind her
Fail to even have a solid reason for me leaving
As I say I'm moving on with my life, but hardly believe it
Wiping my tears XX passion to the fullest
Playing tennis with decisions I don't have the heart to pull it
Am I wrong?
Futures in fucking bitches with thongs
We carry on
Thinking maybe this is what a brother needs
But I just fucking blew it like a virgin on her knees
No turning back now
Ain't no vision of  backdown
I'm just tryna reside where the fellas ride in the background
My best friend makes me feel like I'm a dunce
So I don't tell him what he needs
I just give him what he wants
Fuck yall latitude
Never show gratitude
This is what separating our latitude
Tell me am I wrong?