In search of...

Where are we going?
That's what she said to me
But that place I once called home is just a bed to me
And we don't even sleep
Neighbors can hear her weep
I watch her feelings watch me
And they staring with the saddest eyes of loneliness
Look each other in the face and barely blink
I tried to make it write but the pen ran out of ink
So if my letters don't reach you I hope my words in sync
Where are you going?
That's what it said to me
But that place I call ambition now dead to me
Gone and forgotten
I'm off track like Dale Earnhardt
My liver rotten 
Alcoholic tripping
Fucking bad bitches
And they got bad intentions
Club night
Guys and dolls 
Balling out
But we about to drop the ball
I'm calling out for help
My friend called saying I need your help
I wanna say naw
So in conclusion
Sometimes we lose focus
Planning our own demise
Forgetting the big picture
Making it wallet size
So to what's important in my life
I apologize
I hope to stay faithful, focused and sanctified
We all get distracted
The question is would you bounce back
Or bounce backwards
You wouldn't know how to act
Or would you take action
That's just a part of life 
And if your vision's impaired
You'll probably lose it all tonight
I'm trying to visualize how to get it right
But my vision so blurry
Trying to slow it down
Stay close to the ground
But we always in a hurry
Now and if I could 
Make this world spin a little slower
Then I would
Then we could
Grow a little closer 
I think we're getting closer